Baby Diary

Looking back on my time with my depressed daughter over past few years, I have mixed feelings. Those who have not experienced this cannot imagine and understand this feeling. Fortunately, despite fact that we have stumbled and taken many detours, we are finally on our way to a better future.

I'm very grateful to have seen Master Zhang Jin's "Crossover" when I was most confused. understanding. At same time, I also enrolled in a series of courses. This process of learning and growth is also a process of introspection. From relationships with myself, intimacy and relationships between parents and children to deeper levels, from understanding to recovery, my family, which initially fell apart and crumbled, returned to warmth and love. The husband who used to feel irresponsible, irresponsible and wanted a divorce now thinks he is actually very nice.

After restoration of relations with my husband, I accompanied my daughter in process of treatment, I suddenly felt that I was no longer fighting alone, but there was an assistant-right hand. Also, after training, with improvement in self-awareness and awareness, my own internal friction also decreased. A specific manifestation is that he no longer has enough children and a husband, he can realize and correct his words and deeds in time. The family atmosphere has involuntarily changed, and there are no more quarrels or cold wars at every turn, but you can joke and share your feelings. The daughter's changes are also evident, starting with wanting to leave room and then outside, sometimes buying ingredients for mom and dad to cook meals, snacks, desserts, etc. less and less trauma, occasionally attending school, I made good friends and went out with classmates on weekends. The most fortunate thing is that I often hear my daughter laugh at home.

Although I also know that road to fighting depression is still long and there will be challenges, but I firmly believe that as long as we are moving in right direction and steadily moving forward, we will definitely get better and better. I think, looking to future, I no longer doubt, I am not afraid of future.

Not so long ago I was talking to my best friend about improvement of her daughter's condition and relationship with her husband, my best friend is also happy for me. At same time she said to me, “My dear, those who love openly will love in return. Share your experience and experience, it will definitely help more people. Too many families and children are now trapped in depression.

So I started logging onto Toutiao, trying to share my story. At first I also wondered, is this normal? Can you help those in need? I have no fans at all, and number of articles I read is only a dozen or ten. While Accompanying my daughter into depression, I stepped on countless pitfalls in those years (Part 1) An article came out, comments from friends, number of fans skyrocketed from single digits to triple digits, which gave me a lot of confidence and encouragement.

With an increase in fans, comments from friends, and my attention to other authors, I have found that there are indeed many families with children with depression, like ours, some have come out, but still many Family in confusion and pain. There are many wives among them who complain about their husbands and hate their husbands with gnashing of teeth. I feel same as at beginning. children are torturing these mothers. I feel same way.

However, as I began to pay more and more attention to Toutiao, Toutiao also actively recommended articles about making Toutiao for money. I need money too! I started paying attention to articles such as what topics, what subject, what title... will attract more attention and display, there is also a special writing group, invite you to join, teach you how to write popular articles, and earn more income . Seeing that big guys are making tens of hundreds of dollars a day, I'm honestly very jealous and a little embarrassed, I want to have that kind of income too... I looked at my own income and it's really embarrassing. I feel a bit confused and I really need to make money. After a day or two of quiet reflection, I didn't join writing group and stopped paying attention to articles like "income, hot money, and making money."

I want to write what I want to write with my own mindset and my own way - my experience, my experience, my daily life, my perception and my attitude towards life. I hope to reach out to people who are experiencing same confusion and pain as I am and find a response in them. Since I got caught in rain, I also want to keep an umbrella for others. Those who can read what I write are destined for us. As for how to increase fans and increase income, I think so be it, I hope to help those in need! This is my original intent. I don't want to admire benefits at first, forget my original intention, and lose myself.

I'd like to use this article to remind myself: don't forget original intent! ! Keep goal of headlines in mind so you don't lose yourself in this challenging and alluring environment. !